Hidden in your weaknesses are your strengths. Every weakness has a corresponding strength.
I am probably not the first person on Earth who is ecstatic about the discovery of her strength and how she can use it for God’s greater glory. But hey, I didn’t know I had this, I should celebrate it!
The past few weeks and months has been challenging for me and my husband. We faced mountain after mountain of scathing financial difficulties that I ended up feeling worthless and defeated. My EMOTIONAL SELF was eating me alive. Most of those days I cried in silence as I faced blank walls. There were just so many unanswered questions that I couldn’t answer myself, so I tried asking God.
“Why are you testing me this way, Lord?”
I have uncontrollable emotions, and more often than not, it brings me trouble. I over think things, I am very moody and sensitive. I would know how a man feels just by looking at his eyes, I easily cry. So imagine my crayola moments during these days in our lives!
I was inconsolable almost every day, sadly. I feel that I am a failure in God’s loving eyes. I bring forth trouble after trouble so felt really terrible! I never thought that I am still worthy of His love and forgiveness.
But guess what? God answered me in the most unexpected way.
I have been very vocal about our difficulties to our friends and one of them, in the name of Mauie (haha!) encouraged me to attend The Feast Cebu. I have heard so much about it but never really got interested because Hello!, me attending a prayer gathering? I contemplated for months but finally last week, April 13, I picked a little courage from my pocket and went to “the happiest place on Earth.”
Just a quick note: I have never been a church goer in my adult-life. Church is TOO MUCH for me. I pray and go to church, yes, but sitting until the mass ended made me squirmish so I would always end up praying and confessing privately and silently. I felt comfortable in the thought that my prayers go directly to Him instead of church leaders. The issues of the priests everywhere pissed me big time. Anyone here who feels the same way?
After that eventful day, I went home more than happy, I was at peace. God has answered my questions through one of the Feast’s builders, Bro. Stephen Nellas. The succeeding days were awesome — I came to realize what really was my purpose here on Earth, My husband and I came into a plan that would answer probably most of my questions regarding our daily life, business failures, etc,
I couldn’t disclose the plans yet because everything is still in the pipeline but I am so excited to finally, finally acknowledge God’s plan for us.
Did it rain money on our village for my problems to be solved? NO. They why am I happy? Because there were little miracles, miracles that saved our day to day. I praise the Lord for that. I know in time, magkakalinaw din ang lahat.
After attending this week’s prayer gathering, God has answered another question. Amazing how He knows our questions even before we ask Him. Through the talk, He showed me that there is something special in my weakness. The one negative thing that has been pulling me down in every aspect of my life has a deeper purpose. I did a quick research when I got home and learned that my being emotional is probably the reason of my burning desire to help others.
I learned that I am an EMOTIONAL EMPATH and I don’t have to consider it as a weakness but strength!
Thank you dear Lord for opening my eyes, for entrusting me this special gift. Rest assured that I will use this for a Your greater glory!
God can indeed change the course of our lives in an instant. As responsible human beings, it is just right to plan but always remember that His plans are better and always on the right track and time.