My life hasn’t been so easy, I’m already used to that…but I’ve experienced the worst last year. Hellish it was not, but it was slightly close to that level.
Then 6 months ago, I just lost the will to blog – which explains why I went MIA in the blogosphere (not that you missed me, correct?), I also lost the enthusiasm to fight for something that I have longed for so long.
Things weren’t so smooth but we were giving it another year.
I wasn’t taking things lightly but at least the kids were there and they have somehow filled my every day with color.
Was I hurting? No. I felt that I was already numb to the pain. Yung durog na dinudurog ka pa? Ganun.
When the kids left on January 19 for a vacation, I felt the need to do something about our life as a family.
So I asked my husband, “ano, uwi na tayo?”.
There. I dropped the bomb.
We talked to our landlord, sold some of our things and packed the rest. (The things are still in Cebu — that’s another LONG and sad story)
I didn’t leave Cebu with a heavy heart, in fact, I was ecstatic.
All I wanted to do was LEAVE the place and be with my real family.
We arrived in Manila February 18 and I was more than GLAD to be home.
We left everything, to be honest. Our car, our baking equipment and tools, everything! because we were hoping that we could get it back immediately.
We were wrong.
My husband was scheduled to be there this month. But due to some inevitable circumstances, we were not able to. The landlord wouldn’t release our things because we still owe them rent.
I know that it was irresponsible of us to leave it at that but we didn’t have anything to give.
We lost so much, worse, we lost ourselves in our journey to find success.
Fast forward June 2016, our things are still not with us.
We still don’t have the funds to get them in Cebu.
This has been, so far, the worst that we’ve gone through. Thankfully, we’re still together.
I am still broken, but I am trying my best to pick up the pieces and live a normal life here in Luzon where I really belong.
Trials like this are bound to happen but it is up to us on how we want it to affect our lives. We learned a lifelong lesson the hard and expensive way but I would like to think that we are not the only entrepreneurs who launched something and failed. Our problem is so small compared to that of others but when I see some of them building something again after the fall, I realize that I could do it too.
Things will get better, it will. 🙂